Too Quiet

I had always considered myself very low key, emotionally low maintenance.....but I think at this point I have become so accustomed to drama and ridiculous self sabatoge that I may be perpetuating the cycle. I am putting myself in compromising situations just to keep myself mentally occupied.

I would rather focus on something external whether it be productive and happy or negative than have the mental time to focus on my internal self. I am so hormonal right now it is not even funny.....

Did I mention that lately I have had babies on the brain???